23 years ago my twin and I made our appearance into this world. I was 1 of 4 daughters that blessed my parents lives. It saddens me to know that 15 years ago I was celebrating the last birthday I would ever have with my twin. I'm sad knowing that I could be born with 3 amazing sisters and to one day lose them. They were my first friends and mean the world to me. Every day I miss my twin because something will remind me of what she will never get to do. I wish I could take away all pain and illness from my sisters. I wish I was able to take on all their burdens because maybe then I wouldn't have to lose another.
I always new that one day I would lose my sisters and parents because eventually everyone dies, I just never realize how hard it would be. I'm thankful for being born but right now, I just can't be happy. My daughter brings so much joy into my life but when she's asleep I fall apart. I have so much stress and sadness in my life right now it's weighing me down. I wish loved ones didn't have to suffer and I could make everything better again.
I thought I would be okay today but it's not quite 2am and I'm already falling apart. :'( Therapist at 10am and preparing my birthday dinner after that. I'm glad I'll have friends over because today just isn't going to be a good day.
Watching Our Little Girl Grow...
Kaylin Rose Snyder born on 01/01/11 at 7:23pm. She weighed 8lbs 4.5oz and measured 20 inches long. Nothing could have ever prepared me for how much I would love my daughter. I thought I knew what love was when I got pregnant with her, but that was nothing compared to how I now feel. You can't really ever describe what it feels like to become a mother, it's just so amazing. I'm truly blessed to have this little girl and can't imagine my life without her.
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